Lesson One   

Do I Need Healing?  



So glad you can join us on our first lesson of your healing process.  I wish I could tell you
there is a magic wand that will wipe away all your pain; but, I do know if you take the time to
complete these lessons you will experience a healing power like you’ve never experienced
before.  This may be difficult for you, but the process will be so freeing.  There will be nine
lessons for you to read through.  I will share my experience with my abortion through the
whole process.  Keep in mind, one out of four women have had an abortion, so you are not
alone in this process.  

Letting the secret out, can be the beginning of the healing process for most, since abortion
seems like a good secret to be kept.  Many women, who have gone through an abortion,
have not spoken to anyone about this.  The enemy loves to control us to keep our secret.  
Why without sharing this secret with anyone, Satan can continue to beat you down and
keep you from growing in Jesus Christ.     Sharing your secret out, can be so freeing.

What is so ironic is that everyone told me that abortion would be the quick fix….a done
deal; no one would ever know!  Well imagine, I had not told anyone and I had my first son.  
The nurse in the hospital called me to update my information; I told her, “This is my first
child.”  

She proceeded to tell me, “I see you have had an abortion.”  

I wanted to yell, scream, and shout. I thought this was my secret.  No one was supposed to
know; and, you have it on my records.    Quick fix!  I don’t think!  So why did I have all these
feelings, if it was really a quick fix?    


Do you need to continue your healing process?
Take time to ponder upon these questions:























































While answering these questions, you may find other areas of your life that have been
affected by your abortion.  Take time to write them down.  


I struggled so with the word “abortion.”  If it came on the TV or someone said the word,
I would want to run out of the room.  It was horrible; for eleven years, I felt like God
would never use me.  I was a horrible teen for aborting my baby at fifteen years old.   I
felt like God was up in the sky with His big baseball bat just waiting for me.  I thought
when I had my first son that He would surely take him from me for payback of my sin.   I
didn't know how much Jesus loved me, or about His grace and mercy.  He never pays
back like this; he loved my son too!    
I

Psalm 103:12
As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.


Wow! Do you know freeing it was to know that God didn’t hold a baseball bat up there in
heaven; that He loved me and forgot my sins as far as the East is from the West.  
How far is that?  He removed my sins too! That is amazing!  He loves me and He loves
you too!

Another area I had to go through was being placed in a nursery with lots of babies.  My
skin would crawl; I just couldn’t do it.  I knew God needed to break down my walls of
protection.  I was separated from my mother when I was six weeks old; my
grandmother raised me, while my mother was in a hospital for post partum for a
lengthy time.    So the first year of my life was with my grandmother.  Which I know now,
I suffered with attachment disorder as well.   So how did God do this?  I told my boss, “I
don’t like to do this, but I need to press through.  In a matter of a few days, my walls of
protection came down; I learned to love strangers’ babies now.   God was opening up
my heart to more of Him and less of me.  

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2. When the word abortion is used, do you find yourself wanting to run out of the room or
have tightness in your physical as you hold your breath, etc.?

3. Do you avoid media that contains information on abortions?

4. Are you affected by physical reminders of your abortion, babies, pregnant woman, baby
clothes, or children?

5. Do certain times of the year trigger you with depression or sickness such as the
anniversary date of the abortion or the child’s expected birth date?  

6.  Does resentment or unforgiveness plague you towards anyone with their involvement
with your abortion: parents, boyfriend, the abortionist, friends, or husband?

7. Did your attitude toward relationships change after your abortion?  Did you avoid
relationships, or have difficulty with intimacy?

8. Are you faced with another unwanted pregnancy?

9. Have you rationalized why life is better without the child in your life today?

10. Has substance abuse plagued you or increased?

11.  Has depression or suicidal thoughts plagued you?

12.  Have you experienced hallucinations, flashbacks, or nightmares, or heard a baby’s
cry - relating to the abortion?

13. Has emptiness, a deep sense of loss plagued your soul?

14. Does sorrow, anger, and guilt overcome you, when you talk about your abortion?

15.  Are you compelled to tell about your abortion or conceal it from everyone?

16. Are you driven to succeed in your career or education?  Or do you strive to make your
relationship successful to prove the abortion was the right choice?

17.  Do you have a difficult time bonding with your children, or do you smother them with
love and over protect them?

18.  If you are childless, do you fear that you will never have children?

19. Did you stop growing emotionally after your abortion or begin repeating harmful
patterns?

20.  Are you punishing yourself or denying yourself?  Does an eating disorder plague you?

21.  Is life in sections, before the abortion, or after the abortion?  Has your self-esteem
changed?

22. Is death and dying a preoccupation?  

23.  Did your relationship with or concept of God change after your abortion?  Did it bring
you closer, or are you more distant from God?

24.   Are your abortion memories more painful than the actual experience?